Stay or Leave?

Am I too sensitive? Am I thinking too much? But I'm just feeling unfair. I know I should speak it out. Yes.I should. I should stop myself from being too nice all the time. Speak what your heart thinks, voice out dissatisfaction. Don't hide or you'll be the one suffer. Sometimes, we should not bother too much on how people thinks about yourself. Do what you think you should do. If you think you deserve it, ask for it. Before the year ends, you should be ready for a better year. A better year will not come by itself though. You want it? Fight for it then. Stay or Leave? You'll see.

Lil Tantrum, please behave

If I were to have EQ test just now, I surely failed
Is it just that hard to hide frustration, not showing it on face?
Keep reminding yourself, for your own good, you must do it.
So ask yourself again, if time were to rewind, can you do it?
YES,DEFINITELY.

Again, this is another self reflection of the day.

What to do if you don't know what you want?

Plenty of options laid in front of me.
I know exactly what I don't want.
But I'm still having a hard time figuring out what I really really want.
"Most people just want it, those who succeed want it badly"
Girl, make sure you try really hard to listen to your heart.

I'm fed up with Thai goverment

"It will get better"
"It's getting better"
"The critical period has over"
I've lost count of the number of times I've read it on the newspaper everyday.
But is it really what's happening? I don't really think so.
Come on Thai government. Your people's lives are at stake. Can't you just don't be that selfish? if you can't cope with it, just admit it. Accept people's help and no one will blame you for your incapability. At least, people will still appreciate and be grateful that you are still "people's government" which serves the people, not just there to make money.
Stop playing politics. Unity is all you need. At this point of time, no one can handle this crisis alone, neither Yingluck's government nor BKK Governor.
You always say that it'll get better, it's getting better, but how? Tell us how you're going to do it. You never show us any constructive actions of making it happens. It's been long enough for you to play with it, trying to figure out whether you can really handle it. One-third of Bangkok is now inundated, isn't that enough? Is struggling to protect Bangkok the only way to go? Will it be too late to change your direction? If you really can't stop the water from coming into Bangkok, can't just let it be? The longer you take to resolve this problem, the longer the people has to suffer and more problems will arise. Poorer people outside Bangkok just can't bear any longer.
I'm fed up. Totally fed up.

A reminder to myself

I've just passed my 25th birthday.
And I've been working for 1.5 years.
I've been wanting to give myself an evaluation report, thinking back the past, what I've done well and what I've done not so well.
After yesterday's incident, it was like giving me a strong affirmation that I'm not in the correct direction.
Have been thinking so much during the flight, trying to persuade myself not to struggle anymore.
People will not be succeeding in doing something he's not good at.
Follow what heart says is something I'm learning.
I need advice.
Starting from scratch just needs so much so much courage.
Diversity is the spice of life. I know I need to make some effort to work towards that direction.
Stop plain talking and thinking. Act on it. Planning starts from today.
Make sure you do it.

TIRING

New record set : Latest? No no, should be the EARLIEST OT so far.
2am!!!
TIRING

It's always easier said than done.
It's been hundreds and thousands times that I've told myself to stop doing that, but yet, I keep failing it.
Of having such a weak will, this dampens me.
Whenever I feel weak, I run;
Whenever I feel stressed, I run;
Whenever I feel lost, I run;
Whenever I feel frustrated, I run;
Whenever I feel that I can't stop my brain from thinking, I run.
Running makes me feel stronger, both physically and mentally.
Though it's not a long-lasting kind of feeling, but at least, after I finish running, I feel that way.

So much of random thoughts.
It comes and goes.
Here and there,it's basically everywhere.
I'm not good at articulating my thoughts,
most probably because I always find it hard to get my mind well organized.

There are a lots of things that I'm thinking of now.
Pen all them down is hard for me.
So, I gave up.
Troubled mind of mine, all because of,
I'm lost.



希望爸爸不要在这个时候打过来，
因为，我一定会忍不住的。

"When you focus on possibilities, you will have more opportunities. "

我
不喜欢 抢风头
不喜欢 抢功劳
就算抢到回来了
我会内疚
会觉得不舒服

我宁愿
自己委屈一点点
也不想去抢

不去抢
往往都会吃亏

这样好吗？
我不知道

你不说，人家就不懂是你做的
可是，说出来，不是我的性格
我努力，是不想给人看到的
因为，我觉得，那不是一件很值得骄傲的一件事

我比别人努力，是因为，我没那么聪明
虽然我努力了，表现也不会比他们好
可是，最低限度，我努力过了
要怪的，只能怪我自己，不够努力吧

心里，好难受
:(

"The size of your offering does not matter to God. It is the attitude with which the offering is made that matters. "

Adios Sickening Land

Lotsa people think that it's too tiring to go back home once a month
Lotsa people have asked me: Wouldn't you feel tired to go to work after the long travel on bus?
O well, I'm glad that I can sleep fairly well on bus.
(I would say that it's fairly hard for me to not sleep on bus)
I'm glad that my job starts slightly later than normal working hour.
(As long as I reach office by 10)
I'm glad that I stay quite near to office.
(It only takes me 25 minutes to reach office though I would need to take bus>>walk>>take train>>walk to office)
And thus, explaining why I enjoy going back home so often despite the 7 hour bus ride.
Bus ticket isn't cheap to go back so often, and hence now,I signed up as the member of the bus company so that I can have RM5 off of every single trip.
Not much though, but after doing the math, I'm still better off.Haha.

Tommorow is FRIDAY!
Working people loves Friday!
And it's time for my monthly home trip again!

Bye bye Singapore!
How I wish I would never come back again!
Haaa Dream on!



I know I'm long-winded.
But again!
Happie burfday!
:P